SEHARI SEBELUM

Sehari sebelum ni adalah berkaitan dengan hari sebelum aku admit kt hospital. Sempat lagi tu pegi jalan-jalan beli groceries bersama bonda aku kat Tesco. Jom tengok ape yang kiteorg beli.

1) Sawi (nak masak dengan taugeh buat mee untuk sahur. Bonda cakap)

2) Mee ( dalam plastik )

3) kordial oren (untuk raya kot)

4) Mr. Potato-2 tin, 2 packet (nih kalo adik balik, abes sume dia makan!)

5) Epal hijau (konon-konon aku nak try buat apple virgin mohito. Cari daun pudina susah nak dapat!)

6) Snappy Tom ( untuk Fiona )

7) May (sabun mandi untuk bilik mandi aku )

8) Sabun tangan (untuk sinki kat dapur )

9) Rexona (deodorant aku )

10) Inner-shine (pati prune ni bonda aku minum. Konon-konon untuk cantik kan kulit. Ntah le)

11) Taugeh 

12) Maggie in cup (perasa kari. Bonda suke sangat makan. Kadang-kadang aku bedal jugak maggie dia)

13) TC Boy-Tuna pedas (Ni untuk aku. Nanti boleh makan dengan roti)

Aku suka pegi beli barang dengan Bonda.

Sebab, aku mesti selit barang-barang aku sekali dalam tu. Heeee... :p

Sekian.

KERIANGAN HARI INI

Hari ni adik aku balik! Ye!Ye! Ada kawan. Hahahaa!!! Xde la nanti bosan sgt aku kt umah. Hari ni aku dok ngadap online game je. At the moment I'm addicted to Farm Ville and Mafia Wars. aku jadi greedy gile skang, tambah-tambah lagi skang nih aku aku byk duit. Sape kate online games is not addicted, itu sume bohong!

My pain has reduce a little. Xla macam smalam, sakitnye, Ya Allah, bukan main. Sampai aku x boleh nk tido. Today, I feel much better. With him guiding me, Insyaallah.

Hari ni, hujan skejap. Lebat, tp kejap je. Aku dah berjaya bukak gril kt umah aku yg berat dan no grease itu. Aku kuat! Huahaa!! Bosan sgt la hari ni. Xde ilham nak tulis ape hari ni.

Sekian.

MALAM-MALAMKU

Good evening people. Siapa yang still tak tidur lagi tu, boleh lah read my blog for tonight. My someone is going out of town tonight. We are not in the same code area now, and I still miss him even when he is by my side. And this leads to less communication. Hmmm...

I feel abandon lately. Dia kata it was because of my "not-much-to-do-at-home-for-10-days" is the reason why I feel this way. Hey, what choice do I have. It's not like I asked for it, to be at home resting. But hey, I got a new hobbies now, blog as much as I can! I'm loving it. Seriously, I do. Just sit at home, lying on my bed and type what ever that I feel. Expressing myself la konon. Lagi pun it's better this way. Die tak payah lagi nak dengar aku call dia and nag about how unhappy I am with our relationship.
OMG!! I just discover a way of having less argument in my relationship. *Pat on my own back :)

Oh Hubbyku. Saya rindu kamu!

What are my activities for tomorrow? Hmm.. Wake up, take shower, eat, take medicine, lying on bead, go online, watch tv, do some washing and cleaning, back to bed again and go online and suddenly, oh, it's already night. The world make sense again. :)

Sekian.

BINATANG PELIHARAAN

Ini binatang peliharaan saya di rumah. Walaupun dia seekor binatang, namun dia sangat di sayangi ada pun kadangkala dia ni adalah sedikit mental dengan perangai yang suka menggigit kaki dan siku apabila tidak dilayan atau diberi perhatian.

This is Fiona.

Fiona ni anak bongsu dari 4 ekor. Yang lain dah di adopted by other people.

Dulu Fiona ni manja, sekarang ni bengis and tak macam kucing betina yang lain.

Semua orang dalam rumah ni love her except for my sister. Tak boleh jumpa!

Sekian.

ADUH, ITU MEMANG SAKIT

This is my room, with an empty bed next to mine

7/9/09 adalah tarikh penting. Hari ni aku masuk hospital. Who would have thought that I got appendicitis. Memang bangang doktor kat klinik manjung tu. I swear aku tak kan pegi lagi. Ade ke patut die kata aku kena minor keracunan makanan. Aku pegi balik the next day because sakit perut aku is getting worst, boleh tak nurse dia cakap, dah pukul 6pm, klinik nak tutup sebab nak bukak puasa. Aku merayu kot kat nurse tu and the doctor insists not to take me.

Duduk hospital memang tak best. Sapa cakap best, dia memang penduduk tetap hospital. Dah lepas keluar operation theater, aku masih lagi under drug yang derang cucuk kat aku. Bila malam, aku suruh family aku balik. Kesian pulak, lagi pun aku dah besar, tak kan nak suruh bonda aku teman aku. Malu lah kan. Azab aku malam tu ialah, tak boleh tidur. Diganggu oleh jururawat manis kat situ every hour. Masuk ubat, check pressure and demam. Pendek kata, if I can go home that night, I would have walk home to have a good night sleep on my own bed.

Dan pagi tu, aku dikejutkan oleh Head of Nurse dekat situ dengan suara yang paling merdu and tersangat la kuat, "GOOD MORNING NURRUL!!!!!".

Kesan tebukan di badan. Kecil je kan tapi sangat la sakit.

Cerite pasala appendicitis ni, aku agak sedih. Ye lah, part of my body have been removed. Although ia sangat-sangat kecil dan tak menurunkan berat badan aku pun, tapi aku rasa badan aku sedikit cacat dan imperfect. Hmm.. Tapi, aku sangat-sangat bersyukur, kerana aku masih hidup!

Jangan nak being dramatic kat sini Hudda, it's just a minor operation.

Sekian.

MASIH TIDAK HAPPY

Aku sangat-sangat tidak happy lately nih. To be more specific, since he went back early last June. Aku tak sure la apesal. Was it just me or memang its been so tense between us. Aku tak paham lah. Apa yang aku nak sebenarnye from him?

Aku rase aku memang tak suka long distance relationship. Susah la. Memang la we call each other everyday and with all the technology sekarang ni, we both can be easily be connected to each other. I easily get paranoid. Maybe that is the problem. And I'm being paranoid again. Sangat-sangat tidak suka lah.

I want him to keep his job, but I hate his working hour.

I want him to fulfill his dreams, but I hate his lack of attention towards me.

I want him to guide me, but hate his way of guiding me.

I want to be good for him, but I still think that I’m not good enough.

Sungguh aku tak paham. Aku sangat-sangat pelik dengan apa yang aku rase sekarang ni.

Sekian.

SAPE KAT DUNIA NI SELALU HAPPY?

Why does sometimes things does not go our way? Aku x pahamla. Maybe memang not always goes our way. Aku sedih laaaa… Ishh! Probably aku xle trime if ape yang aku nk, aku x dapat.

I just want to be happy again. Like when I was with him the first time. I want to feel that again. Pleaseeee…. Let me feel that feeling again. Aku xle tahan feelings aku yg mengade-ngade nih. Cepatla happy balik. Aku nak be happy.

Sekian.