COUNTING DAYS.

First 7 months before the wedding and the only thing that crossed my mind was, can we go through this?
Will we have the strength to pull things off?
Are we meant for this? Isn't this too soon?
Are we ready for this? (more of am I ready for this).
And all other questions just pop through like it was the end of my life.

Lately, all I can think is that, can I get things done before the big day.
No more doubt on relationship or future thoughts of we fighting or what so ever.
Not even on how our children will look like.
t's only on, can I get it done? Will it be perfect?
Will there be chaos? (which will always be in any wedding).

Then I realised why did I have all this negatives thoughts before.
Simple. Cos I have too much time to kill, and end up thinking of all the nonsense and being paranoid on the unnecessary things.
Now, I could not even think of anything. 

I don't have much time left. Only 5 days to go.
To be exact, at this point, I only have  4 days and 17 hours to go.
That is like less than a week. Should I freak out? Hell yeah!
What am I thinking about at this moment?
Hmm... I'm thinking on how will I look on my wedding day.
Will the shoes be ok? Dress? Hijab? Will I gain weight? (Hope not).
Will my make up make me look good?
Its all questions without certain answers.
I'm scared.
More than you could imagine.

At this point, I feel helpless. I'm not allowed to do anything.
I'm not used to not do anything. It's my wedding, and I need to make sure everything to be perfect. At least. Being a control freak as myself is not healthy not to be able to handle anything. 

Only one hope, please let everything goes smoothly as I do not want to look upset and not smiling on the big day.

Sekian.