MADE IN MALAYSIA.

I can't deny my language

I can't deny my religion

I can't deny my blood

I love hot weather

I love sweating

I love hot food

I love sweets drinks

I love taking shower 4 times a day

I love wearing 1 layer of clothes

I love wearing heels

I love everything that is the opposite of you

I hate cold weather

I hate the wind

I hate not having enough sun

I hate people staring

I hate wearing socks while I sleep

I hate eating bread

I hate not having what I love

I just can't deny who I am.

Sekian.

TRUTHFULLY, I DON'T KNOW.

Last week was great. This week is hell.

This week is just not a good week for me.

This is when karma are being jealous of me being gay.

Can't you just let me enjoy my happiness for like at least 2 weeks??

I can say that December hates me.

Well I hate you too!

It started with unhappy, then disagreement, then a fight, and to make it even worst, there comes along carelessness.

I just never thought that I would loose it.

See Hudda, always, always, always expect the unexpected.

But who would have thought ey.

I should have just keep it in my jewelry box instead of showing it to the whole world.

Aargghh!!! Hate it! Hate it!!

Talking about that fight, that ain't funny no more. I know that sometimes I loose myself, when I get excited, angry or something. I can't help it. Especially when around my friends. See, that's why I have you. For you to remind me of who I am. I know that I don't speak well, my behavior doesn't represent who I'm suppose to be. Just try to understand, sometimes it's hard to change, to be someone better. And I hope that you don't give up on me.

 

I hope you never do.

Now I'm being silly thinking that we both should take a LONG nap for awhile,

dreaming and then wake up and get ready to what we are.

Am I having cold feet again? I just thought that 2 years is still not long

enough to make that decision. Yes, that huge decision. Are we making a mistake? Are we? I seriously don't know what's going on in my mind. If it is a mistake, now is the right time to pause it. Maybe we need 5 years or more to make that decision.

I can't deny my feelings towards you, and neither yours. It's so strong that I would eat a rabbit for you (which is the last resort, if there is no more cows left. Are there anymore cow?). See, that's is how strong it is.

The question is, am I right for you? Am I good enough for you?(which I try to be). Or maybe it was just me who think too much. But I can't say that those questions does not bother me at all. People are good at pretending you know, sometimes I can't tell.

So I decided not to let the whole know. I rather keep it in my precious little box. Not that I don't love you, but I'm afraid that another will go away.

Where do we go from here then?

Sekian.

MY SMALL LOUD HAPPY FAMILY.

Love you guys.

Always.

:)

FINALLY.

It would be so much better if we are in the same code area.

But I never complain.

Because you are too sweet to be mad at.

:)



MY NEW BABY.

MULBERRY

What's not to love. :)

Thanks to hubbyku. You make my day! :)

Love it!

Love it!

Love it!

INDEED.

Who were there when I needed:

a) good opinion

b) best opinion

c) worst opinion 

  

 Most of all, I needed them for them being who they are

Which are:

a) good friend

b) best friend

c) worst friend

What more could I ask for when I got

THEM. :)

Sekian. :)

YANG AKU TUNGGU. YA, ITULAH DIA.

This is what I've been doing all this while from Ramadhan til today.

Yes, it is what you're thinking.

Checking my mailbox everyday including Sunday and public holiday, if you must know. 

Waiting for the most precious thing from Malaysia.

And it's here!

To Nurrul Hudda Suhaimi. :)

From Muhamad Saari Mohd Hashim. :)

Need me to interpret more?

Alaaa, no need want lah. All the goofy thing inside want ma.

You'll puke want I promise.

But it all don't matter.

I still love to read it hubby. :)

Sekian. :)

MASIHKAH KAU INGAT?

Places where we love to go.

              

Wish we could dance together all through the years.

But I love you anyway.

Every part, every bit, every imperfection.

Everything.

So I let the whole world to know,

So what?

Sekian.

KAMU DAN AKU.

Kamu dan Aku.

Tak lama lagi.

Maka sabar itu teruji benar.

Aku pulang dan kamu pulang.

Bertemu di bumi Melayu.

Di hari kepulangan kamu tiada.

Bilakah harus ketemu?

Ish! (di dalam hati).

Aku kerinduan.

Angin diluar kali ini tidak lagi sepoi-sepoi bahasa.

Seperti mahu menerbangkan segala.

Itulah tandanya musim bunga.

Di mana pula Kamu?

Sekian. 

GRINDERWALD AND AMONG OTHERS.

   

   

      

    

   

            

YANG PERTAMA DAN SENDIRI.

Cherish the moment.

One word - PRICELESS.

:)

Sekian.

AIDILFITRI

Apa makna Aidilfitri untuk aku tahun ni?

Banyak kalau nak di ikutkan. List atas kertas saiz A4 pun belum tentu cukup.

Tu tak kira lagi bakal titis-titisan air mata aku jatuh kat atas kertas tu.

Perit and sedih tak dapat nk beraya dgn keluarga yang sangat-sangat aku rindu tu walaupun tak terbendung, biarlah aku je yang rasa.

Berat benar dugaan Mu padaku Ya Allah.

Aku sedar betapa sayangnya Kamu terhadap aku.

Kali ini, sambil takbir raya kedengaran di telinga, akhirnya jatuh juga airmata mengenang nasib jauh di perantauan.

Benar kata orang, sayu betul andai beraya jauh dari keluarga.

Namun aku bersyukur, andai inilah dugaan Mu pada ku, aku redha Ya Allah.

Bayangkanlah dugaan yang lebih besar bakal kau berikan padaku.

Mampukah aku menghadapinya?

Aku mau, aku patut.

Namun, di dalam hati lebih baik bersedahana.

Mungkinkah Syawal aku akan datang akan bersama yang tersayang?

Wallahuallam..

MAAF KU PINTA

ZAHIR MAHU PUN BATIN

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

YOU... YOU ARE THE ONE

'I thought that I could change you. But you, the force is stronger towards you. I can't help myself when I'm with you'.

That is when he fall in love...

That sentence is always on my mind.

What kind of force?

What is it that is too strong for you hold off when you're with me?

What did I do??

Always that when I'm with you, you keep me warm and safe

Always that when I'm with you, you make me laugh

Always that when I'm with you, you are someone different

Someone that no one know of

Someone who are sweet

Someone who are really funny

Someone who tells me to do the right thing

Someone who gives me everything without giving anything

You.. You are the one

KEEP WARM

Hello rain

Where have you been these days?

Saying says you cool the earth

To me, you keep me warm

Put my mind somewhere else

Change my mood

Make my hand spill what's on my mind

You sometimes make me sad

Mostly you make me wonder

What it's like to be you.

Travel all around and pour down when we need you

Forbid to keep warm or cool

Please don't go away

Stay..

MSA NIGHT - COSA NOSTRA