TRUTH.

I wish I have a secret life.

Everyone does.

Sekian.

HALF THUMBS UP.

I have a lot to say, but nowhere to begin. A lot of things until my head is growing grey hair now. Where do I start? a day ago? A month ago? Years? I don't know. But whatever that is burdening me right now is definitely because of the past. How far would I consider 'the past'? I have no idea. What would be the perfect timeline for me to start? Too many questions. Too many.

Should I cry? Be angry? I have no one to talk to. Not that I don't, basically it's just because I can't. I have been having this dreams of my past. It's like everything flashes back everyday with a different stories. Why am having these dreams? Stupid dreams!, I cursed. Does that reflects my present or probably future? But why are they haunting me now? Nobody knows the answer, even me. Maybe god, if he was the one who's been playing with my head while I sleep.

What do I deserve to get twisted with this kind of life? That should go back to my past I guess. But I wasn't that bad. Was I?

I have a hole in my heart. A big one. And most of it, it is full of regret. It is such a big hole, that I can see the whole world through it. Was that decision a bad call? I can't go back now can I? It's too late. Now I just have to live with it.

How fucked up is that.

Sekian.